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Mom & Dad back in the day…
Today in Prince history: April, 28th 1983: Prince and Vanity appear on the cover of Rolling Stone magazine
I LOVE THIS!! I ALWAYS GET PISSED WHEN MEN TELL ME TO SMILE! JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT TO SEE ME SMILE DOESN’T MEAN I SHOULD…SELFISH!
After hearing Nicki tell me the details of her awful week, watching her take a phone call that somehow made things even worse, and seeing her wait for a bus, clearly upset, it angered me knowing there was a good chance some guy would notice this beautiful woman—-depressed for various reasons—-and politely (but insistently) demand that she put a smile on her face. Despite the fact that he’d had absolutely no idea why she was down—-for all he knew, she could have just found out a family member died (which she did, btw)—-he might even pepper his request with an annoyingly familiar “Come on, sis. Things can’t be that bad.” Basically, since they obviously can’t or don’t experience the range of emotions that any other human (well, any other man) can and do experience, they should be able to smile on demand.
When someone tells me to smile I give them my chipmunk face. Then they usually call me a bitch despite how hilarious that face is.
Nobody Said It Would Be Easy…
This year, 2012, has been one of the hardest years of my life. I lost more people my age and older than I could have ever imagined. I had a lot of tears, confusion, frustration and rage. However, as the year comes to a close, I’m not mad at it. I am happy to see it go, but I am not angry that it existed.
I learned so much in 2012 about myself, my partner, my friends, my family and life in general. I am realizing now that an “easy” life is not owed to me. Don’t get me wrong, I have never been an entitled person, but I also never had the privilege of realizing my mortality, being at the highest degree of self awareness (which isn’t always pretty), and seeing how much fear dictates my life.
Everyone knows that New Years resolutions and “I’m a new me” proclamations are nice but rarely ever last; which is why I am not making any. Although, I would love to say how much healthier I plan to eat and how great I am going to manage my anxiety; let’s be real! There will be cheesesteaks, buffalo wings, Popeyes Chicken, and times when the train stops in between stations for 20 minutes and I internally freak out.
What I will proclaim though is to live life to the fullest and to give myself a break! When it’s 3am on a Friday night and Popeyes is right there, I won’t beat myself up, I will eat the chicken and maybe drink water instead of soda. When the train stalls for no apparent reason, I will take some deep breaths and get enthralled in Solange’s new album and Scrabble on my iphone.
I guess what I am saying is, I don’t want to change who I am, but I would like to try and make being who I am a bit easier on myself. I appreciate what 2012 has taught me, and I look forward to applying all of these lessons in 2013. It’s a New Year, and I am the Same Me!
xoxo
